I got this!

It’s been a while between posts but like they say, ‘if you’ve got nothing nice to say, don’t say anything at all’. The past 6 weeks or so have been a real rollercoaster for me, I’ll try to quickly summarise:

• Excited about new running coach and my increasing strength
• Worried about what seemed to be a relapse in depression, not eating properly, not training properly, miserable all the time, tired all the time
• Off to Dr, not depression, prescribed a week off work (stress leave) and asked if I can quit my job. No I can’t, I have a mortgage to pay. Can you reduce your hours? No!
• After my week off I am asked ‘how will you cope’? Answer: I am just going to change my attitude, get into positive thinking, make the best of it while I’m there and put it out to the universe that I am now truly ready to move on and believe that if I can keep a positive outlook then good things will come
• Applied for a job that I didn’t think I would get. It’s at a real estate agents as a portfolio manager for holiday accommodation
• Nailed the job interview process!!!
• Resigned from a job that is making me miserable
• Getting ready for my first run of the year, 10km River Run, my running buddy pulled out due to injury, quick panic, OMG, can I do this by myself?
• Put on my big girl knickers, went out to my run and smashed it! Took 8 minutes off my previous 10km time

What’s next? I am working out my notice, it is certainly making the clock tick slowly but there is light at the end of the tunnel, I am looking forward to my new position and the new challenges that will come along with it. Next month I am signed up for 17km Great Rail Run so I need to keep up with my training, increase my distance and get km’s into my legs, I am also coming to realise that if I have to have walk breaks it’s OK, I haven’t failed, it’s taking time but it is slowly sinking in, if I have to walk/run then I walk/run but I will complete 17km next month

Also I have put my scales away, I am not signed up for this round of 12WBT but I have a few close girlfriends that are, when they do their weekly weigh in, I am coming up with a non scale victory rather than looking at my weight loss for the week. I want to focus on how I’m feeling rather then what I weigh, I know that if I am going too far off the rails with food and fitness then I will feel it in my clothes and know I need to rein it back in, all of my bigger clothes have been send off to the salvos so no excuses and definitely no buying clothes in a bigger size!

Until next time......I got this :) 

My big 10km achievement